That was the girl i fell in love with. I am gonna miss you so much. Goodbye. 

oh and I’m not responsible for this to the extent you are. if i was just as responsible then i would have wanted a break up and i would have started  playing my cards with other woman like what you did with men and i would have gone out with other girls hung out with other girls done all those things like you. but i did not. i tried to keep us together and you failed to care because you want to go and find yourself, which is fine. i just thought you would have let me helped you in the process, but clearly you think “you doing you” (as you would say) is the best for you. have fun alone. i know in time i will. and in reflection on everything, yea maybe i did get people involved without trying really. i didn’t know what else to do i just wanted you back. sad as that is. now that i know you won’t come back for wrong and right reasons, i haven’t said shit to anyone since because i know its done. as bad as it hurts at least for now and probably forever it is DONE. Hopefully you are happy in the future without me, honestly i hope you are. i never had anyone do anything to you like mike and ed, i never had anyone spy on you or shit like that. the message you sent me was the sad closure and realization i needed to move on. although i can’t stop thinking about you and how good we were and could have been, it doesn’t hurt anymore like not used to. and that is a sign of things to come. i hope we can be friends down the line and sooner then later because you are an awesome person and we get along great! i will always love you and what we had, i will say you were my first true love and the first person i gave it my all for and the first person i cared to no end for, but soon i will lose my feelings for you and all that will reside somewhere in my hurt as a memory. And that is being realistic i guess. Some people come into your life as a lesson, and some as a blessing. I think i may have learned my lesson. 

I have never talked shit, the only reason i thought you were drunk at the concert is because someone told me you were and i never asked. I NEVER told my brother or michael to message you, they did it on your own. Idk why you think you have to be alone when you go through your life. your right ashley catherine cline you have not really changed, but you did grow distant and you did lie to me. and you never used to lie to me. You didn’t tell me about shaun, i had to find out by accident. That is so wrong. and i never controlled you or controlled what you were going to do, i was always truthful in it. you can say this place makes you unhappy but no, you make yourself unhappy. you don’t open to anybody. you don’t people what is truly going on. you force people to get nothing out of you and no one can help you. i could help you. i did help you. i gave you everything i got. i wanted to stay with you until the both of us were unhappy and the relationship was dead. but the truth is, and you know this in your heart, we were happy 95% of the time. Thats the truth, in fact every thing you did made more happy than anyone else. and you are going to blow it completely up because you think it is the right thing to do? because you need to be alone? i should reflect on myself now? are you kidding me? i actually care! i actually wanted to be a part of your life. i  actually wanted to be with you no matter where you were. it became so much less about the sex like it used to be and so much more about being with you. and thats all i want. and because you are angry because you don’t have a clue what you are doing, you threw that away. And ASH, throwing away the best thing in your life no matter what the situation (especially for a 21 year old stoner), is beginning to go down the wrong path. To bad you can’t see that. because no matter what anyone says too, absolutely anything, you are always gonna agree with you. You were always right anyways, Right? and btw i never said you were a lying deceitful bitch. why don’t you ask people what i said? it mostly consists of I’m devastated, she doesn’t have feelings for me,she was not happy, i don’t how to believe those things, I’m depressed, i don’t know where to go from here, i don’t know what to think, i still love her so much and care for her so much. those are basically what i told people when they asked.and yes many people know because the only thing that makes me feel better is talking to everyone, and everyone ask what happened because they thought we were gonna be together a lot longer and that we were awesome just like i did. to bad you did not. it really is 

I wonder why she tries so hard to make me feel like dirt after the break up. i never did anything wrong. i always tried to be with her. i always did what she asked and a million times more. i don’t deserve to be treated like garbage and yet i have been at least recently. it is very sad that someone can change their emotions so quick and leave someone else with a huge hole in their heart. i feel so empty and lost. its the worse feeling i have ever had. the only reason is because i believed in us, i believed that the way we felt was gonna last even longer. apparently you did not and you let it go. its to bad. because i still love you and care for you, i miss you more each day with each tick of a clock. but i know you will never come back because you don’t feel anything for me. i cry over that alone. i cry everyday. because it hurts so bad to lose everything and to have seen it coming and to not be able to stop it. you have destroyed me with this, and i should hate you for that. but i can’t. you are too good of a person. you were too good with me. we were too good together for me to simply forget and move on like it happened last year

putting pictures up about one night you spend in shit i bought you for which you owe me will not make me mad or anything, it will show me that the only reason you do things like that are because you still care. sadly I’m caring less and less and moving on and your missing the best opportunity you will ever have with a guy, because no one will be as good to you as i was. absolutely no one. and you know that. funny part is, is i actually wanted to go to that SYFWB. it sounded fun. instead you went with a low life and are officially beginning down a bad path of scumbags drugs alcohol and probably sadness. you didn’t have to end up with your family, i always told you that, but it looks like you will. its to bad because i would have helped, i always did help. thats the only reason your probably still here today 

if you don’t appreciate getting other people involved then why did you get shaun involved and lie about him? hypocritical

i didn’t get other people involved, i merely fucking told your friends to make sure you were okay and that you will be ok and to take care of you. because i actually still fucking love you and i actually still care for you so i didn’t go to you because you didn’t want me to, instead your friends who often called me first i asked them to pretty much in sum make sure you were ok gonna be ok and were happy while I’m not in your life. thats because i care and i worry so much. you can be  mad all you want but i haven’t done anything wrong

the only reason i did that was because i had too. every time i saw your tweet and every time i saw your fb on chat or on page i literally would break down and often cry. especially with the pictures of us at prom together being your profile for tweets and tumblr. i should be going to prom with you this year but instead I’m at home being incredibly lonesome and sad and thinking about everything we had and why it was stupidly lose